There's still so much an to talk about -- my final, wonderful days in LA, the adventures I had in Tokyo and Kyoto and the awesome people I met along the way, all the moments I didn't get to touch on from my trip to San Francisco -- but I kind of feel like I need to get this off my chest while I'm in the moment.
I feel unsatisfied so far. I landed in Hong Kong this afternoon after taking a two hour Shinkansen bullet train from Kyoto last night, catching up with Yavar for an hour, re-packing my shit, and then taking another two hour train ride at 4:30am to the airport. I was fucking exhausted and that was even before all of that travel and sleep debt. After being in major cities for the past four weeks, feeling like I needed to make the most of every minute and moment, I'm done. I just want to be on the beach, to disconnect, to be without WiFi and alone with my kindle, my thoughts, and my notebook.
And that's really the whole point of this trip for me. Maybe I've just been making excuses along the way -- when I finish GDC, when I finish visiting friends in LA, when I finish touring Japan with Yavar -- but I'm trying to figure things out. Or at least put myself in positions where I'll have nothing to do but think about what's next in mylife and what I want from it. And right now, since I started Around The World Tour 2, I feel like I've been living in two places at once, which takes an emotional and mental toll that I only have myself to blame for. I have a tendency to do that -- it's the part of me that struggles with letting go. The FOMO gets me, man.
Maybe not every turn of this trip needs to be dripping with crucial purpose, but if I'm going to do this then it starts with letting go of whatever it is I'm holding onto. Everything is a choice. It's time to follow through!
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